1> Maid's holiday - find an alternative!
2> Spa appointment
3> Groceries!
4> Pack for the trip
5> Tomorrow's big meeting - get the primer done
6> Collect dry cleaning
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Ever feel like you are running to be in the same place?
That the theory of relativity defines your life - you are aging even though you are just an observer; you are free-falling just coz you aren't doing anything!
That the rain just reminds you of how horrid the traffic is going to be..
That you "visit" family; the flower shop; your fave restaurant...
That it's all going so fast that the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror was just to wear make-up...
Somehow, between all those meetings, office trips, emails and salary checks, your best friend had her heart broken and you never came to know....or you yours but never got around to talking about it...
Your secy is your new best friend, your boss is your God and work your religion...
Somehow, your to do list is never-ending and some crisis or the other keeps pushing you on and on...
Your perception of reality is "I my me", you broke up with a guy coz he earned less than you and all that you can focus on away from work is well, work!
Admit it, life isn't exactly where you thought it would be but it is. You live in a dream, but you aren't sure if its yours...
You know, you don't have to compromise - just coz it seems like the only option does not mean it is! Just coz it seems like the "ideal" life, "ideal" guy, "ideal" whatever, does not mean that you stop dreaming, aspiring, walking on.
A lot of times in life, maybe everyday for some of us, we wonder. Then we wonder, what's to wonder, what's wrong with me, he seems perfect, its really good money, I am not qualified for anything else, and we reconcile and re-believe that our life is perfect. But for how long?
Ever feel like you are running to be in the same place?
Don't run so fast that you get your ankle twisted, or worse your foot fractured.
Gosh, you are only so many years old, you do have the luxury of time on your hands. what once you reach the top? Just coz you are so used to running, you are gonna topple right off - maybe pulled down by exactly one of those super-driven sorts who eerily reminds you of the way you were.
I mean seriously, was this even your dream, passion, true calling to begin with?
Are you truly, honestly, happy, contented?
Do you have a good night's sleep once you hit the bed or you just go from one alarm to the other - one to remind you its bedtime and the other to wake you up!
Do you call your wife/husband/proxy just to hear their voice? Or are they there in your life just like one of those props you picked up in an awards function?
Stop! Stop dragging yourself, lugging yourself around like a dead man walking coz that's exactly what the rest of the world is doing.
I believe, each one of us has a choice, we can be the masters of who we want to be. If it isn't making you happy, its not what are meant to be doing. It it feels like a burden, then maybe, it is.
Reality is what you make it to be. You may be happy to be led, governed by circumstances or you'd prefer to be the one dictating terms. That is a call you have to take. But just coz it seems right and fits the template, doesn't mean that is. Maybe, just maybe, it can be different - not necessarily better or worse but different.
Life is gift - or a curse. For most of us, it ends up becoming the latter and we end up compromising just to be one of the Joneses...
Believe - you have a choice, it may not be shining bright enough to catch you eye just yet but its out there, like an uncut diamond. You don't have to make you with whatever comes your way - that's not to say that you should just be a "stuck up 'no no'" person, but that whatever your current lot in life, you can still aspire. You can go grab the stars, even its just the one on top of the Christmas tree, its a start nevertheless.
Dream! Its important to not stop dreaming. A brave man once said, "never judge a man by what he has made of his life, but he wants to make of it hereon!" I call him brave coz its very difficult to overlook the present and where people can be in life but so what! This is about you, not about them!!
It may seem difficult, childish, but then weren't you happy as a child - when the sky was the limit to your aspirations and even without being able to spell it, you wanted to be an astrophysicist!
Write it down - you once wanted to be a novelist, remember? what happened to that? Or you really really wanted to date this girl, but never got around to asking her out? Do it, turn back if you can, she may just be waiting for you, or she may not but atleast you tried! Maintain a "thought" diary where you can be as random as you want, where you can be honest with yourself, where you can be you..
You know just coz it came your way, doesn't mean you have to be stuck with the first choice. You can choose to wait it out, or keep striving for your dreams, even if you didn't. If they are defined by materialism, so be it. But be sure to choose your life over your lifestyle!
Afterall, there are no rights or wrongs in life, its a journey. So pace it out or burn it out; as you wish, just be aware that you are choosing to do so. And in any case, "in the long run, we are all dead", so no-one's gonna remember you or your mistakes or your successes or your net worth for too long, but you got one shot at life and maybe just maybe, they'll remember your dreams, your passion, your words - now that's something ain't it!;-)
If this makes you feel light-hearted, then maybe its already the start of something magical, if not; lighten up, you, my friend are fore-armed!;-)
Adios amigo!:D