Anamika......

How do I start this - ok, lemme try. I have a confession to make - i have not been reading ::Gasp, Horror!!::

Well, not "no reading" exactly, but just no "me reading"...know what I mean?

I'll explain - most of us like to pursue some leisure activity, right? Its part of being human, de-stressing, yada yada yada. Well, till a few months ago, mine used to be reading - yup, I was one one of those who used to read for pleasure ::sigh....::

Woh bhi din the. But fast-forward to the present, and after a day spent reading reports, research papers, IMF documents, FT, and more reports, somehow I seem to have lost the enthu for reading beyond work. Somewhere, in all those reports, lies a "illuminatus triology" half-forgotten, a "history of the world" unstarted and in-numerous Vikram Seths, Agatha Cristies, and Joanna Harrises unfinished. The last book I started was "Sisterhood of travelling pants" and I have yet to progree beyond the 1st chapter! Per my facebook bookshelf I am currently in the process of reading atleast 6 different books - I dont know how!

To be honest, the last book I read was Sayed Mirza's "Ammi-letters to a democratic mother" but it was only thanks to an extended long break at home that I think I managed to do so.

So what is it that makes us lose touch with hobbies/activities infact even people, places that at one point in time we saw as crucial to making/defining us. Is it plain ennui, or is it a sheer reluctance to push ourselves? I mean, you can take it easy since its only you who is going to know it in any case! what is it?

I dont know...but I would like to know...

Laziness seems too simplistic. The other standard fave is "lack of time". However given that I've had weekends in the past few months wherein I have literally forced myself to go out or watch TV or whatever, naaaaaaaaaaaah. I mean my motto has always been "read whatever possible, even if its 2 lines!" One of my personal faves is "saturation" - u know you tend to read so much as a part of your daily routine that by the end of the day/week when u think its your "me" time or zone-out time, u've literally had enuf! But saturated at 26 - take a hike lady, that is so not gonna pass the litmus;-))

Ok, here's a last attempt, but probably they dont make them good any longer! I mean what in recent years can compare to the pathos and drama of "The tale of 2 cities", or the intense pain in "MacBeth" or the magic and wonderment in "Alice in wonderland..."? call me old-fashioned but I m pretty sure the new-age aficionados will be screaming "off with her head"!

Hmmmm...m stuck!

Lost!

Confused! ::again????::

till later...

P.S. The title holds coz i dint knw what 2 call this one - "Anamika" translates into "without a name":D:D haha gotcha!!

P.P.S. I just realized that I have of reading to catch up on apart from all the writing that I need to pen down! M totally screwed man!! Bhagwan, please bachao!!!